Peyton Sawyer is right.

PEOPLE ALWAYS LEAVE.

And most of them don't come back. Some of them do but they'll leave you again. They don't even think about how you feel when they leave you. All they think about is themselves. Not fair.

I have this list of things I want to do before turning a certain age. Most of them are achievable but they’re too many and I don’t have enough time. Plus, tamad ako. Yun yun eh.

The one thing I want to do before turning 40 is to travel around the world. Of course I will travel around my country first, but after that Europe will be my first destination.


Things I want to be good at before turning 30 (don’t have enough time left. Eek!).

• Guitar playing
  
• Playing the keyboard
  
• Playing the drums (or at least that thing they call “kahon”)
  
• Writing
  
• Graphics design
  
• (Digital) Photography

And speaking of Photography, Pam and I were able to attend a Digital Photography session two weeks ago at AIMS. It was sponsored by Acer and famous celebrity photographer Patrick Uy was the facilitator. It was very basic and mostly he talked about things we already know. The best thing about the session was the opportunity to do a photo shoot with a real model. I forgot her name but she looks like Heart “Que Horror” Evanglista, only she’s a lot prettier and much much taller.




obviously, i still have a lot to learn. paturo naman dyan, Papa Christian!

P.S. juskoLord, buhay pa si Chubi del Rosario???!!!

Last night was the worst I had in years.

I decided to go home at 8:30pm but no shuttle service available so I went to Landmark to test my luck. I’ve never seen that amount of people lining to get home! Hindi ko kinaya kaya I decided to kill time in Powerbooks and came back at 10pm para konti na lang ipipila ko.

I had a great time in Powerbooks, I usually had the greatest time when I spend my time by myself in a bookstore or a music store. Can you see an “L” posted on my forehead? Eh ano naman ngayon? I don’t even care.

Anyway, I came back to the terminal at past 10 and the line was reduced to half but it was still long. And from the looks of it, most of the people living in Cavite will spend another hour or so bago dumating ang susunod na shuttle. A middle-aged woman approached me and offered to get a taxi, P50 lang daw sisingilin nya saken and she will shoulder the rest of the payment. She just wanted to have somebody with her in the cab and para din at least makatulong sa ibang gusto na rin makauwi agad. I was hesitant at first but she was very nice and I could sense that she just wanted to go home as soon as possible so I agreed. She got 2 more girls and we proceed to get a cab. It was 10:30pm.

10:50pm we arrived at Coastal Road’s tollgate and there was heavy traffic. We past the tollgate at 11:02pm. It started to rain heavily with strong winds and lightning so I decided to get some sleep. I was expecting when I wake up I’ll be getting ready to get off the cab. I woke up after an hour and to my surprise we were just a couple of feet away from the spot we were an hour ago! What the hell is happening?! I kept staring at the stereo’s clock and before I knew it, it was past 1am. People started walking outside, most of them I think live close by and we decided to kill time by talking. Pero dumadating pa rin yung oras na wala na kaming mapag-usapan kaya natutulog na lang ulit kami. 2am I got a message from my officemate, nasa SM Bacoor pa lang daw sya eh samantalang 7pm pa sya umalis ng office. Matagal pa ang bubunuin ko, I was expecting to be home at 3am pero from the looks of it (nasa Talaba pa lang ko ng 2am) I’ll be spending 3 to 4 more hours on the road. Malamang 8am na ko makauwi. News of the traffic is being broadcasted to the radio, 5pm pa daw nag start and traffic and until that time – 2am – wala pa ring pagbabago. Pagdating naming sa crossing ng Talaba pinapasok naming yung driver sa loob to take a shortcut and in 30 minutes nasa Imus na kami. Naisip ko yung mga taong nakatayo sa bus na hindi pwedeng magshortcut. Inumaga siguro sila sa kalsada.

I got home at 3:30am, madami akong kasabay sa jeep na nakaranas ng pinakamatinding traffic sa tanang buhay nila. Maswerte pa rin ako kahit pano dahil sumama ako kay Roselle (oh diba nagkakilala na kami) na kumuha ng taxi. Naisip ko yung isang babaeng tumanggi sa offer nya nung nasa Landmark pa kami, nagisisi siguro yung babaeng yon. Anong oras kaya sya nakauwi?

I didn’t feel sleepy when I got home. Nanood ako ng TV hanggang 5am, chaka pa lang ako dinalaw ng antok. Buti na lang classes are cancelled at the Nihongo Center dahil kung hindi, I’ll miss a lot of lessons. Nagbibiruan kami kahapon na matutulog ng buong araw ngayon dahil wala kaming klase, yun nga ang talagang ginawa ko. I don’t have a choice dahil umaga na ko nakatulog.

I just got up and my day is just starting. Hindi ko alam how I’m going to spend it.

I’ve been working from home two days in a row today. It only involves answering emails and IMs that needs my feedback since the company doesn’t provide a decent VPN that we can use. Or maybe they do but I don’t know anything about it. Whatever.

I have no problems staying at home except for one person who keeps on unplugging the DSL (para daw makatipid sa kuryente. Bwiset!). My room is the most sacred place where I can do whatever I want whenever I want to. And since there’s a typhoon, it’s so good to be home and curl up my bed. But I’m sick and that means I can’t do anything. Even turning my pc on requires a tremendous amount of strength and was the hardest thing I’ve ever done yesterday.

Staying home though can make your ears bleed. Especially when you have no choice but hear Willie Revillame and his co-hosts’ voice over and over again. Not enough strength to complain or even put some earphones on sucks. Pinakamagandang gawin is to go back to sleep and by the time na magising ka, tapos na ang palabas.

Hope I can go back to work tomorrow. Not that I miss the work itself, just the people. Hehe.

Mahirap talaga pag yung taong kinaiinisan mo alam mong hindi ka maiintindihan. Na kahit anong paliwanag ang sabihin mo sa kanya hindi ka nya papakinggan. At pag sumagot ka o kinontra mo sya ikaw pa ang lalabas na masama.

Gusto mong alisin ang kaisa-isang luho ko sa buhay? Eh kung alisin ko din yung sayo? Buti sana kung hindi ka nakikinabang sa "luho" ko. Samantalang ikaw pa nga ang numero unong gumagamit nyan.

Kung kaya ko lang mag-isa, ginawa ko na. Leche.

After not posting for more than 2 months, I thought it will be easy for me to post an entry. After all, there’s been a lot going on lately and there are interesting stories to tell. But instead I found myself staring at a blank editor. With just a title typed.

Okay, let me try.

I had an interesting summer. My cousin (together with her family) went home for a vacation and I finally met my niece. I know I’ve mentioned many times how I dislike kids but upon meeting her I think I had a change of heart. She’s just too cute and adorable. I even baby sit her and to my surprise I had a great time. My arms are sore the next day though. I don’t know if I really like kids or just her. We’ll see.

( Look at her. Isn't she cute? )

Two new babies arrived namely Kyoti and Casey. I had to retire my old pc, had some parts changed, and then lend it to my cousin. Kyoti is my new pc. He’s been one of the many favorite things residing in my bedroom. Another new baby is Casey, my Casio CTK-230 keyboard. It’s supposed to be a kid’s keyboard but when it comes to playing this kind of instrument, I am still a “kid”. So what the heck?

Zsa Zsa Zaturnnah Ze Muzikal is the funniest play I’ve seen lately. Laugh trip from start to end. K Brosas and the actor who played Didi are the two people who made it hilarious. Love it.

And for almost a month now we’ve been living without the folks. I must say that it’s hard and great at the same time. Deciding on what food to prepare everyday is very difficult but also fun. Paying the bills, thinking about the daily budget, doing chores (though most of the time I am not included in this hehehe) – everything. I’m enjoying it. Yesterday I told my cousins we should have some fun. By saying fun I actually meant doing karaoke for hours. So we plug in the magic sing and started singing our hearts out. We were having fun but I guess to some people having fun without the help of alcohol is not enough. And because I don’t want them to tease me for being a KJ I had a few drinks. And I’ve been dealing with some emotions lately so I chose to join them. We were home anyway so it’s safe. I felt dizzy after a few tagays but I was okay after dancing and goofing around. The result? I wasn’t able to go to work the day after. I guess drinking isn’t really for me. But I had a good laugh and I was able to forget a few things for a little bit. And it was a good bonding time with my cousins. And I just realized that we haven’t been doing that kind of fun lately and I miss them. We should do it again soon – minus the alcohol.

Some people just don't know how and when to stop. Oh no, they know how to they just don't want to.

Pakshet naman, abuso na! Having coffee, lunch, and meryenda in OUR house almost everyday???!!!! Wala ba kayong mga sariling bahay? Wala ba kayong pakiramdam? Ay sori, makapal lang pala talaga mga mukha nyo. I desperately want to move! I really hope we can move immediately. Yun lang ang tanging paraan para mawala kayo.

Mga buset!

hello. im back. i may not be a good writer and you may find my entries boring but, voila, here i am pestering your friends page. i wasn’t even thinking of writing an entry but what the heck.

i know ive been away for a loooong time. my last post was when? june? and what was it about? me ranting about my work? ah, yes. so here's to update myself of what ive been through since the last time i visit LJ and post something (not) meaningful.

i got a dog. a yellow labrador retriever. i named (it was actually my cousin who named her) her maxine. but i like to call her chloe. she didn’t want to so i settled with maxine. she was 4 months old when we got her, she's 8 months now but she's not gaining much weight. don’t blame me, i always make it a point she eats but i think her being skinny is in her genes. just like me.

my aunt went to the UK for a vacation, she came back last week. all the time she's in the UK ive never had an entry! so lets just scratch that.

the most annoying person in the office left two months ago. you have no idea how happy i was when this happened. i suffered the consequences though after she left. the workload, blame, and frustrations became ours. i hate her even more.

the workload is becoming light now, thank goodness for that. i think im starting to get my life back from the hell of working late and suffering for other's mistakes. i actually started watching movies again. just don’t ask me what i watched last week, jologs eh.

have i told you this might bore you? don’t say i didn’t warn you.

How would a person feel if somebody she thought is one of her closest friend told her she's been telling him things that hurt his feelings? Things, which he didn’t explain when she asked him to.

She's hurt and very disappointed.













I'm hurt and very disappointed.

Its been two weeks since he told me that, and until today I don’t have the faintest idea what I did/said because he wouldn’t tell me. That’s why I decided to simply not talk to him when I don’t need to, don’t tease him like I used to, and sometimes not to talk to him at all. He noticed and asked me what's wrong, I told him since he told me I hurt his feelings by teasing him I wont tease him from now on. He didn’t say a thing and i’m once again clueless as to what I did for him to be acting that way. I hate this. I hate how he treats me. I hate myself for teasing him. I hate him because he wouldn’t tell me. Now I feel sorry for the friendship and wishing we didn’t become friends.

I'm a horrible person.

this week sucked.